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At His Grandparents

It’s the first time we’ve had a lay in technically in a very long time. The first since our 10 month old was born, and for me a long time before that since pregnancy heartburn proved impossible to sleep through.

I woke up at half past seven this morning, wanting to get up. The other half is still asleep an hour later, and I’m bored out of my brain wanting to get up and do things. A lay in isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. So I’m going to get up and go clothes shopping – a task made infinitely easier without little man in tow.

I miss him though. I heard him on the phone and it felt like my heart was melting. I can’t wait for a lovely big cuddle and to hear his little giggle.

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First Trip to the Zoo

For my birthday, my other half decided he would treat me and the little man to a day at the zoo. It was so lovely, doing something as a family, and Henry loved it. He was so interested in all the little animals, his favourite by far being the monkeys. They came right up to the glass, and Henry and the monkey were just staring at each other. It was so interesting for him, and he fell straight asleep after we left. He had worn himself out with all the new things to take in.

He got to see all sorts of animals; penguins, flamingos, beavers, otters, porcupines, mice, meerkats and lizards among other things. He also loves to watch other children running around and playing. It must be interesting for him, and important for him to know the world isn’t only full of adults!

There was also a sign on one of the enclosures saying ‘New Baby’ and it had details of a new baby monkey that was just four and a half months old. By coincidence, it was born on the same day as Henry. I had to take a picture.

I was thoroughly spoilt, with such nice gifts (including a huge Me To You bear from Henry) and lovely cards. We also went wedding ring shopping, and ordered our rings which is very exciting. I love doing things like that. And my partner cooked a delicious meal in the evening and a couple of friends came round. It was a very nice day indeed.

I never thought that I would be taking my son to the zoo for my 20th birthday, but it was so nice to do something we all enjoyed, and I’m sure Henry loved it, even if it was a little cold. I am rather lucky really. It makes me appreciate how much I have in my life!

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First Train Journey

We took Henry on his first ever train journey today. I spent the day with Henry and my mother, shopping and drinking coffee in a nearby city. He was so brilliant all day, and didn’t cry at all. He was too busy staring at everything that was going on, taking it all in and soaking it up like a sponge. He got quite a bit of attention on the train too. I’m so proud of him!

He’s hardly napped all day. I guess the excitement was too much, and the thought of missing out on something was just too great. He’s fast asleep now though. He went to bed a little earlier than usual tonight, but I think that was for the best.

I even sat him in a highchair in a coffee shop, and fed him sweet potato that I made previously and some cooled boiled water in his beaker. He loved it, and was such a good boy! I’m not saying it was easy, especially compared to how it used to be, going out without a care in the world and only yourself to take care of, but he made things so manageable. It’s the best I can hope for, and I just love him so much. It makes me so excited about being able to take him on day trips without having to worry about how he will be.

And I have nice plans for my upcoming birthday this week. He was out for over seven hours and didn’t moan once. I just have to make the most of the nice weather while it lasts. I even managed to treat myself to a new hat. I spent most on Henry though. It’s really funny how I don’t even want to spend my money on myself anymore. I ‘invested’ in a few tops for Henry. One with a picture of a Smurf on the front, one with AC/DC on it and one with the Rolling Stones fourty licks logo.

I know, it had to be done!

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First Mother’s Day (Part One)

A little birdie told me that Henry has ordered me something on the internet for my first Mother’s Day tomorrow. I don’t know if it has arrived in time or not, but that’s very clever for a four-month-old.

I love my special, little boy (and my lovely fiance who I suspect may have had something to do with this)…

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Sunshine and Warm Weather Work

Henry was a winter baby. Ever since he was born, I have always been worrying about whether he is warm enough and if he needs an extra blanket or two. Today, for the first time since he was born, I went out without being loaded down by coats, gloves, blankets and hats. It was lovely and sunny: not bad for ‘just about March’ weather. I had bought a little pot of baby suncream (factor 50) to carry in the nappy bag for days out this summer. It was very odd worrying about sunburn rather than temperature.

I can’t wait until the weather allows for trips to the beach and days in the park. Although, with the warmer weather comes spring, and spring means I’m just that little bit closer to that time I have to go back to work. I want to go, for myself and for Henry and our family, but I don’t. It will be good for me to have time to pursue what I want in life. I still want a career and my own funds and a feeling of self-worth. But leaving Henry is going to be so hard. It makes me upset just thinking about it. I will never again have this much time to spend with Henry, and it’s sad. I just have to make the most of it.

On the plus side, a bit of adult conversation will be quite welcome. Also, it will make me appreciate just how much I love spending time with Henry.

He was so well-behaved today. I went for a coffee with friends and pottering around town in the shops. He only moaned a little, towards the end when he got tired. Other than that, he was fantastic. It makes it so much easier to go out when I know he’s going to be good for me. There’s nothing worse than pushing around a pushchair with a screaming baby in it. It’s so stressful when you want to make them comfortable straight away, but you’re in a queue or paying for something. Three-month-olds don’t understand the words ‘hang on a minute’. When hunger strikes…

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Maternity Wear, or Lack Thereof

I have found it quite difficult to find nice, comfortable, non-frumpy maternity clothes. I have been quite big the whole way through the pregnancy. My bump showed very early on, or at least I was conscious of my ever increasing size when trying to squeeze into my previous size 10 clothes. It posed even more of a problem when trying to dress for work. Office maternity wear is even more limited, but luckily the dress code is quite relaxed where I am.

I went everywhere in search of some clothes that looked good with a bump, and what I found was more than disappointing. There was a few nice bits in H&M’s Mama range, but I can only get away with that because I’m still young. What about all those mum’s in their thirties and fourties? I’m sure that a tshirt with a ‘funny’ slogan on it referring to the bump would not be suitable. Maybe just for pyjamas…

Next had a tiny section for maternity clothes, along with Debenhams. I think their range is larger online, but it is no good trying to shop instore for maternity clothes. I guess their sales aren’t enough to warrant using up valuable square footage on these kinds of items. It’s a shame really, because I really wanted some nice clothes to wear for this period of my life considering that nine months is quite a long time when you are living it. I also believe strongly that how you look and what you wear make a huge difference to how you feel. There isn’t a time when I’ve felt quite as drained and generally in ill-health without actually being sick. I’m pregnant, not ill, and it would be nice if I could buy clothes to make me feel a little more comfortable as well as not being a complete fashion disaster.

Matalan have a few nice pieces online, nothing too flash, just some nice quality plain tops for example and Mothercare have the practical nursing tops, stretchy jeans and maternity underwear, but so far I haven’t seen anything I really love.